Long Update

Well I'm struggling a little. I keep getting lead on by different potential daycare family, who on the last minute bail on me. I originally started with three daycare positions. In August I decided I needed to work a little harder and created one more position. Well now one of my kids has gone on an extended vacation and let his position go. So I'm back down to three, but in the perfect world now that Wesley is going to school full time in January I would like to care for 5 children. Really I only have 4.5 months left before I close my door, so I really want to work as hard as I can and pay off my car. But its proving to be hard. I need to fill the positions before I start to show. Also the reason I'm filling up my daycare as much as I can is because I know come the time people find out I'm expecting they will start looking for a new daycare. I have an interview for 2-3 days a week tonight. At this point I'll take what I can get. Please pray I can get some more work. I need to step it up so I can pay off my debts and not leave Travis responsible with more then necessary and be able to enjoy my maternity leave. I've been stalking the ads of Kijiji, Used Winnipeg and Craigslist.

I gave up Facebook for a week. I took a challenge from Mandy Mom, and gave it up from Dec 1-7th. I realized that I am on there too often. Well maybe not as often as before now that I canceled my phone's data plan, but still, when I'm in wi-fi range I'm clicking in all the time. My friend don't need to know every detail of my life as it happens. I know a bunch of people who have gotten rid of it all together and didn't burst into flames LOL. Its funny, I remember back a few years ago when people couldn't check their email on their phone, and Facebook didn't exist, you made plans to meet your friends in a chat room for a few minutes at night instead of chatting with them all day via Facebook.It also drives me bonkers when people write on Facebook about their older children having bedwetting issues. Its one thing to write about that in your diary where most of the readers don't know you in real life. BUT does every person on your Facebook list need to know about this. What will your child think in 5 years when they understand. I bet they would be mortified!

I dragged my butt to the dentist last night. Ok here is my confession. I Monique the dental assistant have not been to a dentist in at least 4 years. Yeah, yeah, well the carpenters house is always falling apart. Well I had a rude awaking when I found a small cavity in my mouth. I freaked because if I found this, what more was there that I could not see. So I went in and had a cleaning and thankfully that was the only tooth affected. There are two teeth with the signs of the starts of cavity, but if I take care of them they may never progress. I asked my dentist to do them anyhow but he said they are so small he doesn't want to even touch them. I asked him to fix a filling at the top another dentist in the office did, but the contacts are AWFUL and I get food stuck every single time I eat. I wanted him to wait to make sure the insurance will cover it. But he said he'll do it and if they don't cover it he will do the work pro-bono.

I've also been fighting with the people who run Wesley's ABA program. Wesley has a bunch of dates that his tutors were suppose to take him to the school so he can get use to it. Well this has never been a problem, his tutors have taken him to group violin lessons, and play groups. But now the last 3 weeks we are in the preschool program they have decided to make a big deal and say the tutors can't take him unless I'm there. IMAGE how it would go if I took him with 3 daycare children in tow. How much of a distraction to the class would I be?? They were the ones insisting that he go to school and not be homeschooled and here they are making the transition difficult. I am more then willing to sign releases that I will not sue if something happens(unless of gross neglect)I trust his tutors! And to change policies our last few weeks when it really matters what just a tick off. So after that conversation with the people arranging this yesterday, I talked to Wesley's tutor this morning who was also mad they were denying him this chance. She suggested I call the ABA preschool director right away and get her involved. So I called Daniella, but she is out of the office till the 7th. So I took it up a notch, I called the director of the whole program! I had met with her back in May to decide what we were going to do with Wesley. Angela told me she would go to that office and see what was up. And an hour later I was told the paper work was in processes and all should be good. The thing is I should not have to go to these extents. I'm so sick and tired of fighting for every little thing my son needs.

Thankfully the school division seems to be MUCH more helpful. I was in the process of arranging transportation for Wesley to and from school. The lady in the school division that deals with special needs children found out and told me that was not necessary and made arrangement for him to take the school bus. They also have arranged a bunch of meetings to the school this month, and for the meetings at the end of the month when Wesley no longer has daytime tutors, they arranged him transportation. They are absolutely amazing. Now the real test is, can they keep him challenged. Academically he is way advanced compared to his classmates. Now that I will be closing my daycare I can make arrangements to socialize him more homeschooling. So if they can't keep up with him or he starts to regress academically, I will not stand for that. But for now he wants to go to school. So who am I to not allow him to try? But as his parent I have to make sure its the best thing for him. So far I'm very happy with them.

Pregnancy is going well. I'm 15, almost 16 weeks along. Baby is moving lots now. Basically I feel it flipping and dancing around. I've hadsome issues with my midwife. She feels my blood pressure is too high and making a bit of a big deal about it. it was 127/78 and 130/80, both numbers that my doctor thinks are fantastic. But she feels my blood pressure should be 110/70, no matter what. I have never had that blood pressure reading. its always between 120-130/70-80. She feels I should start medication. I don't want to because if my blood pressure goes lower I will be tired and dizzy all the time and I don't want that. So I think I'm going to transfer to my GP, and when April comes transfer to OB-GYN so I can deliver in the city hospital. Its not my perfect plan, but if this midwife keeps on me about my blood pressure, I will stress out about it and land up giving myself real high blood pressure. Plus she missed an appointment because of a labour which is totally understandable, but then she no showed to our make up home visit. My family is also getting uncomfortable about how she is handling my case, so I believe a transfer is best.

17 more days till we find out what we are having. I'm still feeling girl, but everyone else is saying boy.

There is so much else more I wanted to write about and now that I'm here I'm drawing a blank.